“If there’s a God out there, please hear my prayer. I’m lost and I’m scared, and I’ve got nowhere else to go. I’ve come a long, long way, but I’m not sure I can make it much farther… So if You’re listening, could You give a helping hand to Your daughter?”
(This song is actually really awe-inspiring, and if you want to check it out, just click on the link above.)
I recently heard this song, and the chorus has become a part of my daily prayer.
This isn’t something I’ve talked to anyone about except for one person and I briefly mentioned it to my father, so this is going to be a particularly personal post.
Since last September, I’ve felt a calling towards a certain vocation, and it’s really scared me. I’ve never imagined my life taking that sort of turn, so I’ve been fighting it and ignoring the calling I’ve felt in my heart. It terrified me so badly that for a few of these past months, I shut God out. I pretended that He was a major part of my life and that I was on the right track, but for about four months, I was shutting Him out because I was so scared of where He may be leading me.
Because of this, I’ve felt very lost, and, like the song says, I didn’t feel like I could make it any farther. I didn’t think I could run from it any longer, and I wasn’t sure that I wanted to. So one day a few months ago, I sat down and really prayed. I reached out to God and asked Him to take my hand and lead me where He wanted, because I know that He will never lead me down the wrong path. Although it’s not the way I thought my life was going, it isn’t as scary anymore. I’ve come to accept that it’s a possibility.
I know that nothing’s set in stone, and it may be revealed to me that this isn’t my path, but I’ve finally started listening to my heart and accepting that this may be a possibility.
So I’m writing this to say that sometimes God reveals things to us in funny ways, and we don’t want to listen. Sometimes it’s revealed to us through a moving moment, maybe a song, the beauty of nature, or even pain and tragedy. However He shows us our path, we have to trust that He knows what He is doing. Because, believe me, I know it can be scary, but it’s important to remember that God has a plan for us, and He will never lead us astray.
“So if you’re lost and afraid, and you feel so alone, don’t worry child, ‘cause there’s a Father who will love you as His own. Just like He loved His daughter.”